SW: 190 | CW: 187 | GW: 130 | UGW: 115
Do it for the..
So I can put on a bikini this summer and everyone will wonder why I covered up during the school year
-leggings that look amazing
-any bikini
-crop tops
-tight shirts
-oversized shirts and skinny jeans
-a tight dress
-any shorts that I want
The stares
The whispers
That bikini
The collarbone
The gap between your thighs
The hipbone
The crop tops
The loose sweaters
The cute pictures
The light-as-a-feather feeling
The sexy lingerie
And most importantly…
YOURSELF
Imagine walking to the beach in a tank top that fits you perfectly, and a pair of shorts that sit so loosely at you that you have to use a belt, even though it is in XS. And people staring at you because they can’t believe you have changed so much and look so skinny.
And you’re not walking alone, you’re walking with all your friends and you aren’t the fat one anymore, you are the skinny one. And when you get to the beach you take of your tank top and shorts, and you stand in a bikini that makes you look like a model, but any bikini does that on you now.
You have fun with your friends and you can eat whatever the heck you want as you never gain weight because you train all the time and you only eat a little. And you see that a lot of boys are checking you out, and you feel so confident. And when it turns dark you sit by a campfire with your friends and you look like you just came out of tumblr. And you’re wearing an oversized sweater and you look so fragile and small and amazing. And you are feeling amazing.
Just imagine that….
Now work against that, and you’ll be there before you know it.
Do it so you match the rest of the girls at the beach.
Do it so you can wear the dress to the party.
Do it so the boys will crave you.
Do it so you look good in everything.
Do it for the compliments.
Do it because it’s easier than anything else.
Do it because it works faster than anything else.
Do it so you’ll be beautiful.
So I can be the girl I want to be at university, not the girl I was in high school
I used to be around 105 pounds, I’m 5'7". These days I weigh around 138 pounds. Let me tell you some examples how I’m treated differently now:
• I used to be the girl random guys picked up on their shoulders at festivals, now I dance next to them without them noticing me.
• I used to be the girl who got smiles and compliments in bars, now I’m the one smiling next to my friends who get the compliments.
• I used to be the pretty relative with “a model like body” as the older generation says, now I’m “the one with strong opinions”.
• I’m not noticed anymore. I’m invisible compared to before. Our society is cruel but it’s the cold truth. Don’t stop. Soon they will notice you too.
When the skinny girl develops an eating disorder, she gets hospitalized. But when the fat girl develops an eating disorder she gets congratulated on her amazing weight loss. And that’s fucked up to me.
